Resisting Temptations

Today my team celebrated a birthday by having chocolate cake from Portillo's.  And they had it outside of my cube.  Boy did that smell good!!  But I was a very, very good girl.  I know that is something I can't have, and I declined...even when they offered a "tiny piece".  I know the temptations are going to be out there the rest of my life, and the key is learning how to deal with them.  I can try to control things at home as much as possible, but I can't control things anywhere else.

I am down another pound today, yippie!

13 days to go...

2 weeks till surgery

2 weeks from now I will be having the surgery.  The nervousness is increasing a bit.  I am now at 51 pounds lost.  One of the thoughts that has been going through my head is, "Can I do this on my own?"  And then I thought that maybe it's the jitters talking.

So I went to one of the websites I frequent, www.obesityhelp.com and asked those who have been there what their thoughts were.  The stories that they shared were amazing.  They all had similar thoughts, and some of them even postponed the surgery and tried on their own.

One person lost 65 pounds in 1 year on their own, but then gained 84 back, developed sleep apena and type 2 diabetes.  She is now waiting for a surgery date.
Another one lost 178 on their own, but then gained it all back and more.  Now with surgery he is successful.

Another person lost 50 pounds pre-op and started having second thoughts.  But then she realized why she was having the surgery and kept her surgery date.  Her starting weight was 385 pounds, and her surgery weight on May 1, 2013 was 333.  She is now at 166 pounds!  That is 219 pounds total!

The theme from all of them is that the decision is 100% up to the person having the surgery.  But all of them do not regret having it.  I'm sure there are people who regret having it done, but they wouldn't be posting on that type of forum.

I am looking forward to having this done.  I know my life will be so much better.  I will be healthy and able to do all the things I can only dream about right now.  I want to do a 5k.  I want to go hiking.  I want to ride the zip line and hike to Barber's Cliff at LOMC.  I want to go bike riding.  And I can't wait to be able to do all those things!

food weekend

Well, it was kinda a food weekend.  Yesterday was my in-law's 50th anniversary party.  The food was AWESOME.  We dined on soup, salad, pasta, chicken, pork roast, green beans, carrots, potatoes, and lots of wine!  It was fun.

Today it was the usual Sunday McDonald's for breakfast on our way to church.  Then lunch was White Castle, and we ended with Giordano's pizza for dinner.  I didn't go overboard on what I ate, but it was nice to get in a few of my favorites before starting the pre-op diet tomorrow.

And the it all changes...

A little more than 2 weeks to go.  I am looking forward to it.

Beat the first plateau

Another milestone today.  I weighed in at 349, finally breaking the 350 mark.  I was very, very pleased when I got on the scale and saw that number.  The 2 week pre-op diet starts on Monday.  Getting closer and closer.

I'm getting nervous and anxious.  I know I am doing the right thing....doing what I need to do for myself and my family.

I am looking forward to the new me.

3 weeks and counting

Yesterday was 3 weeks till surgery.  This is my final week of the "old" eating plan.  On Monday I start the 2 week pre-op diet.  We went to Sam's last night and bought 2 cases of protein shakes, a pack of high protein frozen meals, a big bag of frozen veggies, and some low sugar greek yogurt.  So that will at least get me started.  Hubby bought a ninja drink maker last week, and he bought frozen fruit, plain greek yogurt, and protein powder.  His goal to make his own shakes and work on this lifestyle change along with me.  Which I think is totally awesome!

I wouldn't be human if I didn't say I was getting a bit nervous.  This is a HUGE step.  I am confident that I will go through everything just fine, and I've done a pretty good job of setting up my support group.

Wow.....3 weeks from today I will be in the hospital, the surgery over, and starting my recovery.  Amazing.

4 weeks till surgery!

I can't believe I only have 4 weeks left until surgery.  In 2 weeks I start the high protein - low carb diet to prepare for surgery.  I see my primary doc tonight, and I have pre-op testing and my final class on Sept 2.

When I think back to January, which is when I started this process, it seems so long ago, and that the time for surgery would never get here.  The closer it gets, the more excited I get.  My whole family is going to be healthier, and I'm really looking forward to that.  It's great now that the kids know, because we talk openly about it and about the changes that are coming.

4 more weeks....